i have been thinking about a lot of things today...

friendship matters really is so troublesome...
not only yourself will be affected...
people involved will also be into this complicated mood...

i realised that im very sensitive...
also i realised that even if you all see me in this state you all wont be bothered much...
but everytime i think about all these matters i will ended up thinking its all my fault...
im not a great friend... so why will people treat me good...
maybe because i have a "black" face... so why would people want to talk to me with a smiley face...
im not proactive... so i always feel that im left out...
i dun have any topics to talk about and all my topics are dumb... so why would people wanna talk to me...
and i always concede to every behaviour action... in a better phrase is easy going... but it not that way...

i just keep thinking... keep thinking...
i haven started on my maths either...
im really not in a good mood today...
it may not be you... im just being sensitive...
so you can ignore this post... i will learn to feel indifferent when im being ignored...

and i came across this short clip that lead me to this song...
i realised why siaoyi like this song...


the translation might not be accurate
but i wanna say that this song is touching...
hahax... although it might not be related to this post, it is a very nice song for crying...

[emo post! :( i got a headache... "side effect"... if you noe what i mean... :P] -cheryl*