went to siaoyi's blog then realised that sm concert is postponed...
and its 2 days after my bdae!
and 1 day after yunho's...
i even joke that someone will buy a sm concert tix...
another will pay for my airfares...
and someone else will pay for my hotel fees...
lolz...
so imaginative!
lolz...

now thailand international airport is so chaotic...
i wonder how the sm concert will be conducting...
they reached there alr?
or getting delayed?
or maybe getting to the bangkok stadium by another way?
hope they are fine...
only to dbsk shinee and super junior...
lolz...
dun like the bitches...

SHIT! IM DYING OF YYL HOTNESS!
i shouldnt have started the show...
now i must wait every week for the next episode...
haiz...
how can someone be like an anime character...
so perfect with great features...
maybe he might not have very prefect character...
but how can his face looks so nice...
haiz... envious... :P

omg!
i wanted to watch mit...
but even before the show started i was like ?!
cause during the starting song there's a scene where yyl and guigui kiss!
like directly on the mouth!
ahh!!
im so going bonkers now...
lolz...

YO GUYS!
IM BACK!
im back from chiangrai alr!
hahax...
this year the trip is quite nice...
there were many
- happy stuff
- funny things
- irritated moments
- new experiences
- "adventures"
- food!
the trip sound quite nice there though...
hahax but not those relaxing kind man...
im really enjoyed the trip although it gave me headache about making ppl responsible...
but now when i reach home iforgot everything alr.. :P
so that means on the trip i was very much annoyed by a few ppl... :P
hahax..
i was also "idol-sick"!
lolz... i wasnt home sick or what...
but "idol-sick"!
lolz... and partially "food-sick"
lolz...
i missed the food in singapore too...
and definitely more idols show that i missed...
hahax...
i believe others have more to say...
but this trip have nice pictures!
and the "clique" was fun too!
so overall it was good~
hope will go back next year cause of the experiences that singapore dun have...
and make more thai friends ba... :P
hahax! but i want only a whole cohort...
or maybe just a few friends going tgt :)

im going off around 2hrs later...
but im still awake!
not that i dun wanna sleep...
its because of the last min packing and works...
but im still not finished...
there's still a little more other stuff to do...
i guess either i have very little sleep...
or just dun sleep at all...
but im scared that if i just plop to my bed i will never wake up...
hahax!
hope this year would be really a great trip!
hope it doesnt ruin my memories of it...
also! hope we wont be bounded by groups!

wth!
today got MKMF!
the korea's biggest music award on live!
and i just missed it!
wth lah!
like when i go online to the shinee forum...
and finally downloaded the korea tv connection...
it ended!
damn!
i missed SHINee and DBSK and more interesting stuffs man!
(like TOP kissing Hyori!)
angry!
but youtube members uploaded damn fast can!
lol... but the quality sucks!

woah! the prev post is damn long!
i think idolness and sports will keep me away from those moody swings!
esp variety programmes and a friendly match respectively...
hahax!
ps. heart pain from just now... like a few hours ago...

IM FREAKING DAMN PISSED NOW!
PISSED AT GURUNG!
PISSED AT WTH STUPID REFLECTION THING!
PISSED ABOUT CCA!
PISSED ABOUT THE DAMN ATTITUDE THAT THE GENERAL OFFICE PPL GAVE!
PISSED AT STREOTYPE PPL!
PISSED AT THE SOCIETY!
PISSED AT UNFEELING PPL!
PISSED AT SLOW UPDATES!
PISSED AT INDECISIVE PPL!
PISSED AT IRONIES!
PISSED AT CHILDISH PPL!
PISSED AT PROBLEMATIC PPL!
PISSED AT THOSE WHO GAVE ME THAT DAMN ATTITUDE AND I WASNT QUICK ENOUGH TO REBUTT!
PISSED AT STUPID STRESS THAT JUST EXIST INVISIBLY!
PISSED AT MONEY PROBLEMS!
PISSED AT LAST MIN CHANGES AND INFORMS!
PISSED AT MYSELF FOR BEING NOT CONFIDENT!
actually if i really do a list it would really be inifinity...
i believe a lot of ppl also have these angry moods to vent...
recently most and damn pissed at that idiotic gurung...
if she finds it (me and my phone calls) irritating...
then i find her more irritating man!
esp the irresponsiblities, the nuisance of her actions and behaviours!

also! money problems really comes even more problematic when its economy crisis...
i dun wanna trouble my parents to spend even more then they should...
and others also are having trouble too...
like my uncle is having trouble with his company
and her own daughter...
cause she's really very spoilt...
like almost everything i have and its new or cool gadgets she would want...
but its not my fault anyways...
cause im trying to cover it from her...
but either her mum or my mum would mention about the gadget...
so i have no choice but to show her...
but she should really stop this habit of hers man!
its like she wants almost everything expensive and rarely uses them...
so waste of money...
i wonder what to do to change this habit of hers man...
i hate seeing ppl so worried...

and thinking back...
i really can cry at anything...
cry at surprise moments...
cry at over laughters...
cry at grateful moments...
cry at shocked moments...
cry when listening to song...
cry when listening to others' problem...
cry when i feel helpless....
cry at angry moments...
cry at sad moments...
cry when im thinking too much...
cry when someone is just telling me off... (not even in a scolding manner)
cry when stress...
cry when everything goes wrong...
hahax the list is just getting more and more... :P

and now my mum is nagging about her life experiences...
i noe she just want me to prevent from having the same bad experiences...
but its really non-stop going...
hahax...

anyways i decide to go visit my grandfather myself tml before going for the chiangrai trip...
partially to pray for my grandma for the success and speedy recovery of her upcoming sugery...
and partially to visit him because it seems so disrepectful and so bad that i last visited like long ago... :P
hahax... today i was being weird too...
going all the way to outram with such a heavy bag...
then to amk and then back to sengkang...
hahax i could have just take the purple line directly to the sengkang...
like a sudden decision cause i tot tml i wont be going to grandma house...
so must at least meet her up before going the trip!
hahax but i never meet up with my other grandma leh... :P

hahax wanna thx clarissa and siaoyi...
maybe siaoyi didnt do much but her msg always came on the right time :)
ohh and clarissa i always beside me when im down...
hahax feel quite bad lah...
like she did so much when im feeling down...
while i couldnt do anything...
or rather i dunno what to do :P
i suck at comforting man! :P

im very temperamental these days...
i got prob i think...
suddenly become very sensitive...
quite a nuisance...
but things that make me angry were ppl at the meeting...
esp someone.. damn irresponsible...
anyways sorry that i vent anger on you today...
just like all of a sudden just burst...
hahax but i dun think it really looks angry...
three things im worst at...
rejecting ppl, concentrating and scolding/being angry :P
hahax maybe being moody im better at it rather than being angry... :P

aiyo!
and recently everything seems to be in need of money...
and i dun wanna trouble my parents...
esp my mum...
it seems like im spending more money than i should...
haiz... this is one thing i dun really like about holiday...
now! i should really learn how to save money man...

ohh yea!
today went to play bball!
damn shuang now!
finally sweat! :P
hahax...
im glad i suggested it!
im damn shuang cause so long never play...
and can de-stress and lose fats... (if i did run :P)
(ps. to someone: can you dun be so thick-skinned?)
AJA EVERYONE!

OMO!
i just reach home, on channel u and guess what i saw?!
i saw ahben and xiaogui introducing guigui and yyl out!
and i got a shock...
haiz...
they so clicked tgt but just scared that they will have something more....
but at least no friendship probs...
i think friendships prob is the more difficult prob lor!
lolz...

well for the previous post why i say i will have no mood today...
is because i noe that i will cry today...
either (maybe) tears of joy...
or not for the worst outcome...
hahax... I PROMOTE TO SEC 4 ALR!
but i cry not really because of this only...
i cried because i can put all those uncertain feelings down now...
and also for those who worried for me...
im really sorry for those who spend time concerning about my 'promotion' :)
now you all can lay down your hearts :)
i really wanna thx those that spurr me on or rather comfort me :P
hahax... it sounds like im so impt here...
kidding lah... i glad to have you all as friends :)
i think you all are impt to me :)
i prefer paying more attention to family and friends then results in actual fact...
but everything need a paper man!
even recycling so i have no choice but to worry about that too... :P
however in life... all of you guys are my energy! :)
hahax :)
also i want to say sorry to my parents they all seems so worried...
and they also waited for the results with me....
i believe today i cried more for my parents :)
they are really good parents! (ok this sound weird)
like i can see that they did everything for me (knowing that i would retain they also will see accept the fact) and im very touched...
maybe because im the only child... :P
hahax :)
but i wanna thx them! :)
hahax...
but i must still work hard like be very very hardworking from now till all the way next year...
i need to catch up a lot of stuffs...
although im promoted, my results are damn sucky!
like all just borderline only...
so must not dissapoint others!
and start working hard!
i must keep to this! :P

although im very sleepy now...
i better post this before i really have no mood tml...
today i went out with the clique~
lolz..
but in the end its still only the five of us...
linghui pearlyn clarissa goh clarissa lim and me...
lol...
we went pasir ris to cycle today!
we were suppose to meet at bishan 1030 for breakfast but in the end everyone was late...
lolz...
but in the end we didnt had any breakfast :P
only small snacks...
lolz...
then we heed for pasir ris park!
we played the playground there first...
the playground was something i have never see when young...
hahax deprive of childhood...
but the playground there is really humongous~
then we rented the bike when we finally got enough of the playground... :P
we rode for 2 hours and there was an accident in btw...
linghui fell! :P
partially my fault lah...
cause i didnt break when she crash into me..
feel quite bad lah..
hope your wound is better! and sure wont leave scar one!
as long as you dun eat dark coloured food or sauce...
lol! cause thats what my grandma said...
lolz....
and we did lots of singing today!
in the public!
lolz...
hajiman sexy~
enjoy the pics!
but there's more in facebook!

IM VERY PISSED TODAY (IN THE AFTERNOON)~
maybe partially myself and someone else...